IF

if you need me, say it to me a thousand times, and i'll stay

if you do care for me, say it to me a  thousand times, and i'll stay

if you crave for me, say it to me a thousand times, and i'll stay

if you miss me, say it to me a thounsand times, and i'll stay

if you want me, say it to me a thousand times, and i'll stay

if you love me, say it to me a thousand times, and i'll stay

but if its the opposite story, tell me once, and i'll go.

HURT

im hurt
feels like my bones are broken into pieces
my soul disconnected
my heart turns to dust
blown away by the wind
every tears that flows
emptied my heart with a deep dark hole
where do we stand now?
when your words are floating on air
while i cant reach it from the bottom of the sea
your silence killed me in and out
your silence is too loud
deafening my ears
im hurt
bleeding in daze
surrounded by vulnerability
unprotected from helpless feelings
will i be alone through this?
because it feels like a slow death
creeping its way to me with pleasure
marking my forehead with words like alone and goodbye
i love you too much that it seems impossible
impossible because it keeps on growing
impossible because its never ending
but what happen between here and there?
if i am your truest love
then why is it so hard for you to convince me?
if i am your forever
then why you went silent when i wanted to say goodbye?
please do tell me
when i am not the one for you
because it feels like you're slipping away
and im hurt because of it
yes im hurt my dear love
will you be there to ease my pain?
or will you go away from me
leaving me behind with a broken heart
leaving me behind with irrevocable scar
im hurt
like a stabbing dagger
straight through my beating heart.

:'(

INTERESTING FACTS

• If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. 

• The strongest muscle in proportion to its size in the human body is the tongue. 

• Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.

• The average person falls asleep in seven minutes. 

• A cockroach will live nine days without it's head, before it starves to death.

• An ostrich's eye is bigger that it's brain.- so kalau nak nak panggil org bodoh, samakan je otak die dgn otak burung unta. haha

• Snails can sleep for 3 years without eating 

• 111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,32 - i hate maths but this is kind of interesting

• Men can read smaller print than women; women can hear better than men. - no wonder la men cant understand women easily, its their hearing problem.

• Bullet proof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers, and laser printers were all invented by women.- go women!

• Honey is the only food that doesn't spoil.

• The very first bomb dropped by the Allies on Berlin during World War II killed the only elephant in the Berlin Zoo. 

• The world's youngest parents were 8 and 9 and lived in China in 1910.

• Einstein couldn't speak fluently when he was nine. His parents thought he might be retarded. - it means einstein was once stupid first before he became freakishly smart. so if you think you're not smart, dont ever give up aite?

• Most lipstick contains fish scales.- thnk god lipstick is not my thing.

• Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn't wear trousers. 

 

• The most common time for breakups is around three to five months- okay saya takut.

• “Kiss” is from the Old English cyssan from the proto-Germanic kussijanan or kuss, which is probably based on the sound kissing can make. - bukan bunyi muah muah ke? hahaha

• Passionate kissing burns 6.4 calories a minute. A Hershey’s kiss contains 26 calories, which takes five minutes of walking–or about four minutes of kissing–to burn off. - b lets kiss! i want to burn my calories :D

• Blueberry juice boosts memory - how about blueberry cakes? hee

• When cats are happy or pleased, they squeeze their eyes shut

• We, as humans, forget 90% of our dreams - patut la tak ingat mimpi mimpi best aku

• Coffee drinkers have more sex than non-coffee drinkers.  They also enjoy it more. - err b do you drink coffee?

• 80% of all pictures on the internet are of naked women - no wonder la kan

• 250 to 300 million cell phones are being used in the U.S.

• In Victorian times, prostitutes wore pubic wigs - ewwwww

• Cleopatra married two of her brothers - that's sick

• Ants never sleep 

• In 2009 one of eight newly married couples in the US met online - true, i met mine online too! <3

• Everyday, 15 billion cigarettes are smoked worldwide - smoking suckss

• Among older men, vanilla is the most erotic smell - nak sugar daddy? pakai la perfume bau vanilla

• At any one time, there are 100 million phone conversations going on in the United States.

• Coca-Cola was originally green.

• If you attempted to count to stars in a galaxy at a rate of one every second it would take around 3,000 years to count them all. 

•  There are 10 million people who share your birthday.

• A hippo can open its mouth wide enough to fit a 4 foot tall child inside. - bosarnya!

• An average person laughs about 15 times a day. - hahaha

• Human teeth are almost as hard as rocks. 

• There are more chickens than people in the world. - one day all these chickens will rule the world! beware.

• The average person has over 1,460 dreams a year!  

• Smelling banana /or green apples (smelling, not eating) can help you lose weight! 

• If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood vessel in your head or neck and die. If you keep your eyes open by force, they can pop out. - haaachummm! 

• The first couple to be shown in bed together on prime time TV were Fred and Wilma Flintstone 

so ni jela fakta2 menarik yang menarik perhatian saya setakat ini. bye :)

LOVING YOU

loving you is like
opening presents on the morning of my birthday
loving you is like
drinking a hot chocolate on a cold night
loving you is like
getting lollipops on valentine's day
loving you is like
looking into the great blue sky
loving you is like
saving kittens from dirty streets
loving you is like
hugging my teddy bear before i go to sleep
and waking every morning with it next to me
loving you is like
writing a love poetry
and reading it out loud
loving you is like
playing in the rain wihout fear
loving you is like
watching penguins walk towards their family
loving you is like
getting flowers randomly
loving you is like
watching sunrise on a breezy morning
loving you is like
walking on the soft sands of the beach
loving you is like 
listening to a long listed of favourite songs
loving you is like 
eating chocolate cakes
loving you is like
wearing my black converse shoes, just perfect
loving you is like 
loving my dear family
well loving you is everything i love. ;)

LET ME TELL YOU

let me tell you
every smile that spreads across your beautiful face
looks like sunrise that shines every morning
everytime you laugh
sounds like an echo of bells
but yet soft like velvet
let me tell you
every gestures that you make
looks flawless and perfect
like swans at the lake
everytime you hold my hand
it sends some magical flow through my body 
that would take my breath away 
let me tell you
everytime you look into my eyes
my heart beats loudly
as if it is trying to jump out of my chest
everytime you called my name 
tickles the very core of my love bones
let me tell you
everytime i hear your voice, whispering love words to me
i fight the urge to scream that i love you through my open window
every moment with you is a blessing from above
let me tell you
what i never get tired of telling
that i am absolutely and irrevocably in love with you.

poor little old lady

flower petals falling down to earth
one by one
old and dying
it had been been a beautiful flower once
but everything has its own end time
she touches her face
caressing carefully and slowly
as if it is fragile and breakable
tears streaming down her cheeks silently
and she could not deny all her fears anymore
she could not runaway from the truth anymore
because she is staring at it now
oldness screams through her face, her eyes, her hair, 
her breath and her very own heart
and she cant make it go away
her age is increasing like the ticking of her old wooden clock
stop!
she cried through her closed red lips
her eyes wide with horror
but age would never listen
and time would never stop
and she is scared
she keeps on replaying all the things she had done
and all the things she had not
in her mind
she does not know how much time is left for her
nobody ever knows
so many things she had regretted in her life
so many words she wanted to say
but time is running out
every pieces of her life is slipping through her fingers
she knows she is bound to the world she created
and she is not ready to let it go yet
not ready to leave
poor little old lady
crying silently
while all her flower petals in her yard
falls down to earth one by one
old and dying
while staring at a reflection of herself
wishing she would never got aged and old

WHEN INK SINKS INTO A WHITE SHEET OF PAPER

words are supposed to be spoken
but words often speaks for themselves
stories are supposed to be unfold
but unfolding it needs an epic of an imaginary
one mind flies
fly from reality
lets write, one think
when each words collide with another
making sentences and sentences
until it reveals a script of stories
one a white sheet of paper
a subject to provoke another mind
a material to dissolve in another heart
to hate
to love
its a choice
to choose the right reflection of life


see how an ink sinks
and stayed there faithfully
waiting to be known
its an idea that never dies
never afraid of its own shadows
mind you, its not just a story
its an emotional journey
of one particular person
to capture the hearts and minds of another
making it, its almost magic
sometimes it never ends
like the blue sky floor
the deep unpredictable ocean
the blossoming flowers
the birds chirping singing a sunny song
the rise of the sun every wake of dawn
the rise of the moon when darkness falls
the rythm of the wind thats almost like a lullaby
makes us wonder
how life is such a beauty
the essence of it is in our heart
sometimes we found it
sometimes we dont
thats when a story plays a role
opening our eyes not just to look
but to see
what we cant before
when the magic begins
the words are born
the sentences grows
and a story are now unfold
and a big white door
is open for us
to fly and to dream something beyond
our own sets of boundaries.

MILES TO GO

heart insecure
feelings that are not so sure
walking down this windless road
staring at nothing in particular
a vast land waiting to be walked through
picking up dirty stones one by one
and counting eagerly
as if it will make this journey ends faster
but i know its a false hope
people say life is not a walk in a park
a metaphora that i only began to understand
and it scares me
because i still have miles to go


i began to learn that every step i take
is not to end the journey
but to live through it
every second was and is significant
witten permanently in my soul and my heart
how far i had gone and how far i had to go
i did not want to care anymore


so i throw back all these damn stones to where it belongs to
i let go the insecure
and calm my heart to an ease
yes, there is still miles to go
and it is perceptible
because there is a difference between being dragged to fight a battle
and fight the battle with my head held high
and with that 
taking one step at a time
i will live my life for today
as if i will die today.

GOODBYES FROM HER HAZEL EYES

behind her hazel eyes

i saw a story of her life

bound to be kept a secret

for a long time

her face had traces of age

an insight of sorrowness

an open book of her deep remorse

her story is not a fairytale

it never had a happy ending

behind her hazel eyes

i saw her burden

the weight on her shoulders

as she paces back and forth

as if waiting for someone to come around

and take her away

its been a long time

since she gave up life

she pledge not to go anywhere

except the pathway of her lover

the person who gave her a life

and the same who took it away

behind her hazel eyes

i saw that her love towards him

is something beyond the typical

when its not just about saying words of devotion

its puzzled

like a cryptic language

easy to fall into it

hard to be unfold

and never irreversible

behind her hazel eyes

i can see the obssession

to keep the bond tightly

between them

even when he's long gone

as the time passes like hour-glass

its something i could never understand

and i wish i could

now looking into her hazel eyes

i see nothing more than an emptiness

and through it

she said her goodbyes.

END

as our time is running out
are we ready to face it
to face the day that has been predicted
as long as our human revolution
the time when it will all end
end our human race
end our modernisation
end our poverty
end our wealth
end our prosperity
end our burden
everything would be lost
and will be taken back
nothing more would be left for us
except ourselves


have we prepare enough for it?
have we feed enough faith in our souls?
have we prayed enough to our creator?
or are we living like an undead person
unrealising that our life is just borrowed to us
only for a little moment
even our green planet is mortal
breakable and fragile
just like us
and we will be gathered 
people of different beliefs
different race
different colour
different social class
would be the same at last
but only the choosen ones
the ones that followed the right path
the path of our creator
would be safe




as our time is running out
are we ready to face it
to face the day
where we would be judge
judge for the responsibilty that had been given to us
the day of judgement
that was a promise to us
it will end it all
end our human race
end our modernisation
end our poverty
end our wealth
end our prosperity
end our burden
everything would be lost
and will be taken back
nothing more would be left for us
except ourselves.